Tears for school

I don't know what to do .Zoe  is 6 and has always loved school. Last year in Pre-K there was no trouble about her going to school. She looked forward to it every day. That's the way it's been this year, too.....until after Christmas break. Then her tummy started to hurt a lot. Her anxiety level has shot up. She cries every morning before school. She upsets herself so much about it that she's splotchy when she goes to school from crying.

I've tried to explain to her that sometimes we have to do things that maybe we don't want to. She says she just wants to stay home with me (she's always been home with me). A and I did find out that a friend she's had since she was too tiny to walk has found a new friend and is playing with someone else. The friend is not excluding Zoe, but Zoe's a little jealous of the new friendship.

What bothers me the most is that I don't want her to inherit my social awkwardness. I'm no good at small talk. I'm honestly no good at making friends. I get scared I'll say the wrong thing or that someone won't like me (yeah, I've got some issues). But when Zoe's with me, I try to push those things aside to be an example for her that such things are not scary.

I just don't know what to do to help her. We've had snow days the past 2 days and having her home was wonderful but certainly didn't help with her anxiety.

I guess I'm just muddling through this the best I can.

I've missed my cute little blog....

Did you ever have guilt for being guilty? I saw this poor blog just sitting there, minding it's own business and not making much of a fuss. It takes the back seat to my main blog .. Goodbye, Fat Girl! and this little blog doesn't complain. I've contemplated giving this blog up. Just deleting it would be easy. But I consider this blog The Little Blog That Could. If I just give it a little attention now and then, it really DOES think it can (be something cool).

So I've been feeling a little guilty for not having tended this cute little blog, so I went ahead and made a new banner for it.

I've got to tell you though, my 2 year old is testing the limits of her momma's patience. I get a lot of "NO" screamed at me and she's in full-fledged pushing other people around mode. I'm pretty lucky that her older sister doesn't push or hit back. But I know Monkey (the younger of the 2) is just carving out her place in the family and the only way she knows how to do that right now is by force and defiance. It's up to A and I to teach her differently. But holy crap can that be a hard job sometimes.

She'll be better by the age of 3, right?